~ PerCusSo ~

Hmm, I’m very happy that I have stepped down from the YouthBeat main committee after being persuaded by some committee members to stay on. And therefore, I can concentrate on building our XTOMIC’s future together with the volunteers. Meanwhile, I hope that there won’t be an one-man’s show anymore..

I still remember what Fern said to me about XTOMIC. It’s not very good if we carry on like this in the one-man’s show. I agree with her completely, but I wonder how I shall do about it. Let me think… *thinking*

Now, I wish the YouthBeat all the best for its endeavours..

Back to our XTOMIC’s matter on being independent from the YouthBeat, it has been agreed that it will be independent with a total 100% guarantee of not being disbanded with many successors. Yes, I’m working on it and I’m really very worried about it.. Hope the volunteers of XTOMIC can give me the complete 100% assurance that they can lead XTOMIC as a big, strong, united group.

Last Saturday, I went to Dawn’s place for the Volunteers’ Orientation cum Welcome party. I was supposedly to be there on time at 3pm, but I was not very keen in it. Again, I have already set my mind on stepping down from the YouthBeat main committee. And, music is my top priority. I had been practising my percussion at Canossian School after my teaching work till 4pm. I almost completed the song after 4 times only and this left me a good answer..

Meanwhile, I am looking for a digital recorder so that I can burn my own songs into my cd and this cd can be used for my scholarship applications and other things. Thanks to Rossman, he can lend me when he is back to Singapore on 16 Feb.. Again, I’m looking for a video recorder so that there will be a stronger credibility in my performance portfolio for the same reasons – scholarship.

I guess I have been working so hard as I know my true answer to my life. Hopefully, I can carry on this way. Hmm, I need some support from people around me again – maybe, they can come down to listen to my music and at the same time, I need some comments from them. I really wanna improve on my music and even myself!

While practising, I was so frustrated.. I really couldn’t tell what kinda of music I played. So, I recorded it with the help of my handphone. However, the recording lasted for only 1 minute. I was alone over there, that was one of the reasons.. Then, I wanted to leave early for Dawn’s place. But instead, I stayed on to practise till 4pm as I had promised myself earlier on. Why did I stay on? It’s because of people around me. I assume, they are the source of movitating me…

Again, I really hope that you all can continue to motivate me all the way..

You are a Ballerina. You are the classic princess
between all, you have an opinion about almost
everything, your friends respect you and see
you as a role model cuz you are always in your
way up. Your ideal man is someone who respects
the successful and intelligent woman you are.

What kind of dancers are you? (Girls only)
brought to you by Quizilla

Me, facing great walls of my room..

Hmmm, I’m staying at home all day today. I do not feel like going out. It’s just that I wanna finish what I want to do for myself…!

Yesterday, Cherylene and I had our very long chat after going down to the Centre for American Education. Now, I’m still pondering…

True enough, the Singapore Deaf community may have little or no backbone in the advocacy of Deaf rights. They do not have Deaf pride unlike those in USA, Europe and Japan. Also, they do not have their own motto: “Deaf can do anything except hear”. In USA, Europe and Japan, there are a plenty of successful Deaf people: being lawyers, models, doctors, vets, musicians, teachers, actors, bosses and politicians.

Perhaps, I may be wrong about this. It cannot be helped when the Deaf community is too busy with improving themselves, leading their simple lives and other commitments. Meanwhile, there is still a lot of discrimination against the deaf community. Not only the Deaf population but also the disabled are not spared of discrimination.

Again, I ask.. Where’re those older people? Why aren’t they doing anything for their younger generations like us? What happens to the SADeaf? No advocacy? Since it has its 50 years’ history, I’m very sure that the SADeaf got its great achievements where the Deaf community had made its great impact to the Singapore here. So far, it has one of this: Jarn May! She has already inspired most of the people such as Alfred, Andre and me.

I’m glad to be inspired by her. Not only her.. I have the XTOMIC to thank as well. Yes, I founded this XTOMIC 2 years ago. Without the members of XTOMIC, I wouldn’t be what I am today and XTOMIC wouldn’t be around! Haha, this is really a great help to my porfolio and when I have been applying for the overseas music course, I find that I have no problems with it.

Again, I think… Will be my future guaranteed here in Singapore when I graduate from my music degree in overseas? I only know that I can be able to teach music at Canossian School. And, I can be able to perform with the NAC as serving the bond for my music studies. But…

I do not know if I really can help the younger generations when I have achieved my goals. I really wanna help them and bring them about achieving their dreams whatever they want to be..

The answer is… still in questionable.

Do I need to be selfish? Or MUST I? Perhaps, I must have several achievements in MY LIFE and that’s my life..! Volunteering at SADeaf can wait, I have decided to step down from the YouthBeat this time.

Feeling troubled at this moment.. But I really cannot say here. I’m gonna sleep now to forget these troubles I have in my mind. Perhaps, I will wake up the next day and with a such feeling, I’m sure that I will solve them slowly..

Hmm, hope my troubles will go away soon. *praying*

Haha, I have been waiting for Jocelynn to send this picture to me for a quite long time. Here we are: SINGAPORE IDOLS!!



In the small island of Singapore, Taufik is our first Singapore Idol while in the small Deaf Community of Singapore, I’m their first Singapore Idol. *flattered* Me, so thick-skinned! :p

Hmm, Taufik is really GREAT in my heart! I really wish to have his album, not pirated one in this way of supporting him!!

This picture is sent to me by Handoko. Initially, I do not know what this picture is about. Then, I saw my Chinese name, “WU LI LI” on the top of the red flag.

“MY NAME IS THERE!!” *winks*

I’m feeling so sick.. I got the cold from Huishan, I suspect! Even worse, this cold triggered a pain in my left ear. It’s a signal symptom that I will get flu soon..

Last night, I didn’t sleep as I was rushing to do my personal statement for my UK overseas course application. And now, I have no choice not to sleep tonight again. Earlier on, I was asked by Mr. Teow to help write the reference letter by tonight and it will be more convenient for him. Less work for him. This way, he will have his changes in the letter.

Why cannot I wait? I only know that the closing date is 15 January and that’s why I am very busy with this. I cannot afford to miss it and it concludes that time is very PRECIOUS! *sniffing & sneezing away..

This week (3 Jan to 9 Jan) was very busy, no.. I can say, it was very OVERWHELMING! I guess I have so many things to do but still, I need to take a step at one time.

When the year of 2004 was ending, I had been thinking of myself for some time. Yes, it’s a time that I have to do something for myself. I came to realize that I have been spending alot of time & work in other things like XTOMIC and SADeaf. However, it’s really worth committing myself to these things. It really helped me alot..

Therefore, I just started on looking/applying for the overseas courses at British Council. Will continue to apply at Centre of American Education. There’s no harm applying though I know that I have NO MONEY to study overseas.. Moreover, I’m preparing my National Arts Council scholarship application all the way and its closing date is 30 April 2005. I hope to win this scholarship so that I can study overseas.

Meanwhile, there is alot of greed in myself. I planned to apply at NAFA so that I have two choices of studying: LOCAL and OVERSEAS! This way, I can have more choices to compare and I can decide which one is better suited for me.

Besides planning for my music studies, I just prepared myself for ABRSM exams (practical & theory). Initially, I wanted to register myself for Grade 6 practical exams. Now, there was a change of decisions: I took a BIG RISK to take the Grade 7 practical exams (percussion) and moreover, I will be on my own to learn everything on this level. It means I do not have any teacher to advise me all the way. And, it is to test myself for my musical talents.

Right now, I am thinking of stepping down as the Vice-Chairman of YouthBeat. I know myself that I cannot commit myself to it. And, it is confirmed that Andre is going to Australia for her degree studies. Congrats to Andre, I’m very happy for her as I know this is her lifelong dream to get her degree. She’s very fortunate to have her parents supporting her financially and morally all the way!

Again, XTOMIC will be out of YouthBeat’s wing and it will be independent under the Specialized group, majoring in performing. In YouthBeat, there are 2 other groups: Community Service (CS) and Recreation & Leisure (RnL). The CS is doing well while the RnL is completely DEAD. I guess, YouthBeat will be “disbanded” if there is no suitable leaders to take over Andre and me.

Haha, I can’t help myself.. I have so many things in my mind. However, I have been telling myself to take a small step at one time. Also, I need to be positive and PATIENT at all times!!