~ PerCusSo ~

Happy New Year,
Happy New Year,
Haaapppy Neewww Yeeeaaaaar to everyone!

May ya all be blessed all this year round!!

This year of 2006 had less happenings, not of much excitement. Let me recall some events…

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[January 2006]
My story was featured on Channel U – Youth Decode.

[March 2006]
Started a full-time job of teaching assistant at Joy Place.

[May 2006]
Had a short getaway trip to KL-Genting, but it was not really enjoyable.

[June 2006]
Had another camping trip to Kota Tinggi and Desaru. Not suitable for me, quite boring. But I enjoyed the company of Jarn May, Jennifer, Stella and Chin Heng.

[July 2006]
Met Evelyn Glennie at Esplanade during her concert. Cool meeting!
Also, participated in a TV show – It’s Showtime. After getting through the Round 1, I backed out due to other projects on hand.

[September 2006]
Had another show – A Nation in Concert at Esplanade Concert Hall.
Organised the first XTOMIC’s performing trip to KL-Penang.
My first aunt passed away during the trip and managed to catch the last day of her funeral when I came back from it.

[December 2006]
Quit my job of teaching assistant. Teaching subjects like English, Maths, are not my cup of tea. Besides it, my job scope is limited. A little experience gained.
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This year has brought me a lot of struggles. But in return, I gained a lot of experiences. Now I can say, “Goodbye, 2006…”

Welcome, 2007!
I have a plenty of resolutions for the year of 2007. Hope they turn out to be better and I hope that I can achieve some things in my future endeavors. *brimming with hopes*

Back home finally!!

Just now, my mummy and I went to Johor Bahru with Andre and her parents without any plan. This was my first time going there in a car! I was told that the car was rented at $50 for a day and it was damn cheap!

Interesting trip to Johor Bahru… Andre’s father drove without any map, that’s amazing! Cool man!!
But he was not familiar with roads. He knows about Jusco that is a large shopping mall and decided to take us there. He was not very sure about the directions. Drove to many petrol stations for directions. 1 hour passed… Another hour passed…

Finally, we reached our destination. WOW, much bigger than Vivo City in Singapore…!

We went straight to the restaurant since it was past the dinner time. 8.30PM…!
Andre’s father ordered alot of food but alas, we didn’t finish up the dishes… The next thing was shopping, so we went on our separate ways…

My mummy bought me a swimsuit. Good bargain anyway!! I got what I needed! =)
Then, we window-shopped for jeans, shoes and handbags…
Meanwhile, Andre and her father were busy sms-ing. Her mother was shopping for stockings and other things.

What an enjoyable shopping trip it was..! My mummy was all smiles… Me, glad that I spent some time with her as I neglected her at home most of the times.

Photos I took during the trip…

Panorama view – I sat between my mummy and Andre.

Had fun photos of Andre and myself. =)

Happy Ending…

Goodbye, Joy Place! I miss you guys! Will drop a visit over there soon…!

At last, I gained my freedom… More time for me to do my things.
For now, I really need to do my spring-cleaning in my room. It’s really messy! I am unable to sleep in my own bed since last October/November. Poor me!!

I can’t wait to sleep in my own bed!!!

The NTU volunteers who conduct the Tuition Programme at SADeaf are having their annual Christmas carolling in sign language at the different venues:

> East Point
19 December 2006, 7.30PM

> Jurong Point
20 December 2006, 7.15PM

> Bugis Junction
21 December 2006, 7PM

> West Mall
22 December 2006, 7PM

I’m gonna give them support at Jurong Point and it’s near my home. Also, some of them were my former sign language students.

Sorry, I haven’t updated my blog lately. I had been very busy till I’m strangled by too many things. I really need a BIG BREAK…

What did I do?

Working at Joy Place is really going quite slow. But one thing I only like is to plan and train kids in performing for the Christmas events. Training kids in song-signing, percussion and acting are a quite challenge. It’s really hard for me to get these kids with different disabilities to perform together. My goodness, I’m going to get stressed up!

Teaching subjects to kids is not really my cup of tea! I do not know why it’s so… Funny, I enjoy teaching percussion music to children at Canossian School. It brings me a wonderful feeling to educate, share and play with them.
During the Nov-Dec school holidays, I often go back to help them and still, I enjoy it.. :p

And now, the caroling event is over! Whew!!
Out of 19 volunteer carolers, I’m the only Deaf participating. Although I’m not really keen to work with these carolers, I enjoy performing with them.
This evening, I performed a solo song “Silent Night, Holy Night” with a group of carolers at Marina Square. This had received great response from the audience and it was a beautiful one as they described. For the rest of the songs, they were also beautiful. The audience loved them! Meanwhile, the carolers had brought home their beautiful memories when they practised and performed together. They had their great fun.. I’m grateful for this experience I’ve gained, especially the given role of emcee and thank God for it!

Through it, I made friends with them, especially Alex. He turns out to be one of my good friends and he has been telling me about GOD and His words. I’m more clear about Him and I’m getting closer to Him through Alex…

Now, next is my duty/responsibility about submitting the sign language format of the Beginners’ Level. I’m gonna finish it up before this Friday 22 December. But unfortunately, I am unable to attend the meeting due to my kids’ performing show. I need to be there to lead this show and I’m gonna ask my team for help..

There is another thing I need to do for myself: to send my vcds about my story and percussion music to institutions and companies/organisations to source for funding support and to get my place for my studies.

My god, so many things to do… I’m now strangled!!!

To the one who set my heart and soul on fire…

Trying my best to act like everything’s okay
I battle with myself to make it through each day
Hours pass by with racing thoughts of you

Overwhelmed by emotions,
I opened up myself to you the first time
But I begin to confuse myself
Why did I let myself believe
Mirales could happen
Cause now I have to pretend that I don’t really care

I swore I knew the melody that I saw you signing
And when you smiled, you made me feel like I could sign along
But then you went and changed the words
Now my heart is empty

I understand how the things go on for us,
Even though it makes me sad
But I held on to this love tightly
Love is worth waiting
You’ve come into my life
I know I will never love anyone again

Even if you don’t come back,
I’ll wait this year for you
Even if this love you lack,
I’ll do what I want to do

Every day I pray
With a smile on my face
I continue to keep this love for you
In hope that you’ll come back to me one day

They think I’m stupid, they laugh at what I do
They criticize and ridicule this love I have for you
It doesn’t matter anymore, nothing matters anymore
The only thing that matters anymore, is the love and what it’s for

Just know that I will love you,
And maybe that is sad to hear,
But I will do what I want to do
Even if that means a year

Maybe you don’t love me,
But I’ll be waiting in my heart forever
Waiting forever…

Take Time to THINK …
It is the source of power.

Take Time to PLAY …
It is the secret of perpetual youth.

Take Time to READ …
It is the fountain of wisdom.

Take Time to PRAY …
It is the greatest power on earth.

Take Time to LOVE and BE LOVED …
It is a God-given privilege.

Take Time to BE FRIENDLY …
It is the road to happiness.

Take Time to LAUGH …
It is the music of the soul.

Take Time to GIVE …
It is too short a day to be selfish.

Take Time to WORK …
It is the price of success.

Take Time to DO CHARITY …
It is the key to heaven.

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Sorry, I haven’t updated my blog for some time. I have been busy with my personal things and I’m still settling them down.

Since then, I had been bottling my problems down inside of me. Going, going and gone through some transitions. Although I’ve left the XTOMIC some time ago, I couldn’t stop myself from doing more shows by song-signing and percussion. I don’t deny that I love performing. Why must I stop this passion because of XTOMIC only?

I can do it on my own (solo).

So, I decided to follow my heart – performing percussion and song-signing. Along the way, I hope to get some inspirations to create a deaf arts evolution in Singapore.

Even though I’m no longer in XTOMIC, many people still see me as the founder of XTOMIC. When doing solo shows, they thought that I’m still representing XTOMIC and SADeaf. This led me to face one of my problems – identifying myself in performing arts scene.
Therefore, I decided to leave XTOMIC completely by removing myself from the XTOMIC mailing list. *My apologies for not telling you, Hina! You’re a good leader to XTOMIC, I can tell you. You’re still learning to lead people. Well-done job and continue to keep it up! One day, you will have great achievements in your life.*

Also, I’m facing another problem – lack of a reflective signer or helper. I had no choice but I had to turn to XTOMIC for help. Now, I cannot depend on it anymore, otherwise everyone will think that I’m still with XTOMIC. And it’s a time for me to look for a person who can help and support me all the way and train him/her.
At the same time, I hope to represent myself, not XTOMIC! This way, I will know who, what and where I am.

Right now, I do not feel any sense of belonging with XTOMIC. I do not know myself who I am in the eyes of XTOMIC. I’m told that I’m still seen as “the founder” even though I no longer am in XTOMIC. In my heart, I really hope to be a good friend to everyone in XTOMIC. I wish to be “Lily Goh” who has a cheerful, cranky personality. Well, it’s already over. What’s done cannot be undone…

Here, I’m following my heart – to put all my efforts and hardwork into my BIG DREAM to be an international performer.